Monday, August 04, 2008


My doctor asked me last week if there was a lot of stress in my life. I laughed. I told him the fact that I am alive in the South of France means I am stressed. I struggle a lot more than I should. I still feel completely out of water. I have heard that in the land of the blind the one eyed man is King. However for me that position must be one of desperation. How do you tell what you see to a community who have never seen? King? Outcast more likely.

I question am I being overly negative here and I hope I am not. I am, I think being very realistic. Given my daily frustrations with communication, with being precise, the lack of sport has served to multiply the stress a number of times. I told my doctor this. He asked me was there anything specific going on. I reeled off the list.
My divorce is happening too slowly and I am afraid I won't get to see my son enough. Some judge will look at what I earn, at what his mother earns and demand I give her money. He won't care she doesn't pay rent, he won't care that I have to have exactly the same items in my place as she has in her place, and therefore the financial cost is the same, he won't care she doesn't teach him to wash his teeth or how to use his knife and fork. I won't be able to commuincate adequately either with my lawyer or the judge.
We are trying to buy an appartement, the bank won't give us a loan unless my ex signs a bit of paper that she is not going to try and take a part of the appartment. I have asked her would she sign that paper and got no reply.
My lawyer is apparently on holidays so there is no advice coming in there.

We are expecting a baby. Lover is now starting her 4th month and we are very happy. Boy is delighted and really really curious. I have checked with him many times how it would be to have a sister or brother and he is just so thrilled. He feels alone in a world of adults with his mother. He feels it here too I am sure. I have told him that when he is back from holidays we have to organise that some of his friends can come and visit.

So the doctor smiled, I seem to be very amusing for the medical brigade down here. Perhaps it is my sarcasm or dry humour but I don't think they get to laugh a lot.

So I am back on the pain killers and the muscle relaxants. Lover seems to have a lot more energy than before and is really sweet and pleasing to be around. It is a welcome and timely change.

MY groin strain is easing up, My balls don't feel like they are exploding any more, just a little too stretched. My shoulder and upper arm are locking, my hip is physio went on holidays and his replacement seems a little run off her feet, and I am her last patient of the day...the work is hurried rushed and not as good.

I am changing appointments back to the morning to see what happens. There is another physio next week and it will be interesting to see how or what she does with me.

I have just another twenty sessions to go...........I must keep stretching but it's not so easy with a groin strain. Ah time for a pain killer I think.... if I come out the other side of this healthy there is nothing going to stop me doing my Iron Man.

Around the baby all we are able to think about are girls names, so previous experience tells me it's a girl. Boy is already trying to come up with names. Lover is very very happy and that is good.


Moni said...

OH WOW!!! Congratulations!! How wonderfull!! I could not be happier for you and your significant other. I wish you a very healthy baby! I think it will be great for your son. He will have someone to help out with, someone that is his "own". It really will be wonderfull for him.
Congratulations once again, my friend.

Tea said...

Congratulations! How exciting! What is the due date?

Anonymous said...


That's massive :) Ahh, the second trimester... it brings such relief but is so shortly lived.


Warrior said...

Go raibh maith agat K8! Due the end of January Tea. Thanks Moni :-). Life is definitely throwing a few adventures our way.

Emilie said...

Maybe you could consider "la garde partagee" not sure the identical term in English... you know, when your ex-wife and yourself take care of your son one week and then the other week it's reverse. This way there is no need for anyone to pay the other any allowance. Of course that's only possible if your new partner is ok with it, and if it's not to inconvenient as regards to your boy's schooling.
Oh and thanks for your comment on my blog you are very sweet :)

Warrior said...

Hey Emilie welcome back here. Yes that is what I planned to do, but the lawyer I found happened to be a friend of her fathers and screwed it all up. So although I had asked him to submit for divorce he never did and he allowed her to do it instead, on her terms. Charming fellow....not.

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